The Struggle of Being a Single Mom.....

I'm out at the college and trying to ascertain what's become of my financial aid check. There is no check. 6 units is not enough to get a check. I'm so glad I figured this out now, before the 30th of September when they told me I would get a check. So I brought my three year old in with me to accept the terms and conditions of my subsidized loan. Naturally I did. I pay a sitter for 2nd shift while I go to school and one for full time nights and I sho' did bring my Lukie in with me through this whole process throughout today.  I'm really glad that i didn't quit my job! I want to though. I hate the night shift. Really. Three weeks before I get my check now.........and this means, I'm kind of aggravated. I could have done this three weeks ago. 

Do people really pay out over $300 in childcare and live on a poverty guidelines income like mine. B/c it's total crap. I had to call the elementary school today and just talk to them and say, you know, this is hard enough as it is. You want more money and I don't have more money. I have $23 bucks in my pocket and I don't get paid for at least another week. So welcome to my world. *Sarcastic Laughter*

Do I feel like I'm urging myself in the right direction? Absolutely. My job is what they call a pud job, it's an easy job that some people can retire off of, but not people like me that support two children alone. I don't have the answers. I just woke up and thought, I don't want to smoke anymore. I quit. I don't have the answers, but I'm tired of being fat so I put it into the perspective of "IM WORTH $41.60 " I joined a gym and have lost three pounds so far. Basically, I got sick and tired of being sick and tired so I am active taking measures to change it. All of it. Everything I can. Why? Because I'm 31 years old. BUT I'm not dead yet!!!!